I get it, but still.

It’s not really late at night right now, but, whatever. I’m upset. I have been for a few days now. But before this I didn’t really have a reason. Now, I do. I’m upset. Tomorrow I’m going to go out with my best friend, who will be unnamed due to privacy or some other similar reason, and surprise, surprise, he’s going. 

I mean, I get it. You guys are still dating, you miss each other, you haven’t seen each other in four months, it must be unbearable. Not that I would know, I’m not dating anyone. I don’t know how you feel. So I get it. I try to be the understanding and supportive best friend that I’m supposed to be. I understand. I’m gonna the bigger person and not, ykno, be some obnoxious … bitch. Plus, I get to be alone with her afterwards. I’m following her home and staying over. For like … 3 days. I get it. I’ll be patient. 

 

 

But I don’t wanna be. I’m sick and tired of being the ‘bigger person’. For once, just ONE TIME I want to be able to go out with her and just be with HER. And our other friends (who can’t make it tomorrow due to reasons, which is understandable). I don’t even know why I’m so upset. I’m just so moody right now it’s not even funny. 

It’s stupid. I keep eating, I just wanna lie down. But when I do lie down, I don’t want to lie down. I want to go out, but I don’t wanna go out. I want to sleep in, but I want to sleep early. I want to go home, but I am home. I want to have my own room. I can’t have my own room. I really should stop complaining and get over it. So what? Everybody has their ups and downs. Get over it. 

 

Feeling stupid, 

Love, 

Charley

the Pocket Monster

DFTBA.